Lonely

Life as a caregiver is very lonely. I have friends and family and the kids...I have an awesome support system, but the lonely part is the time I miss with my husband. Those quiet moments, those late night conversations, the silly moments in the car when I'm singing, the times he tries to talk to me when I'm blow drying my hair....all those things are gone. There are no quiet moments, no small little conversations. All his energy is consumed by just getting through the day. There is hardly anything left at the end of the day.
I've tried filling this void by talking to my family and friends on the phone, but it's just not the same. Something is missing....it's a void that only he can fill. It's a void I see missing in him as well. Cancer has really robbed us of so many things...I can't wait to get everything back once we get through all of this!